Sometimes lowering your expectations is good for your mental health:

Me before: Gosh it’s a holiday weekend I should be at an outdoor barbecue somewhere with an SO or fiancé on my arm talking about the family we’re going to start after the wedding and I’ll be funny and charming and also 100 lbs lighter in a drop-dead sundress. But I’m not and therefore I have failed at everything ever, have zero worth as a person and will die alone.

Me: *goes through some weird-ass mental health shit, gets some perspective*

Me now: *sitting on the couch in my underwear, happily stoned, browsing the web and pondering what kind of take-out to get after having some kind of kinky, transgressive sex with my best friend* I don’t now about “happiness” but boy wow, intense contentment can be a thing and I have found it.

I’ve had a recurring nightmare for the last 20-ish years that always boils down to the same…

I’ve had a recurring nightmare for the last 20-ish years that always boils down to the same thing: I forgot to take a class in high school and if I don’t re-enroll immediately and take a remedial class or courseload my diploma will be invalidated, which will invalidate my college work and I’ll be unemployable. Inevitably in all iterations of this dream, it’s the end of the year and I have attended no classes and have taken no exams and I’m frantically rushing around trying to figure out how to fix it.

Until last night.

Last night, I marched up to the office and told them I’d had enough of this bullshit jerking me around, I am a 36 year old adult with a full time job, paying her own way and they would be giving me the diploma I had properly earned years ago and not bothering me any more. I hung it on the wall of my office in my mind, and with that symbolic gesture I hope to close the two-decade chapter of “I’m secretly a fake and not very smart,” imposter syndrome that has been dogging me.

Good night, gods bless.

Hey Tumblr knowledge base, I has question. The term “spirit animal” isn’t mine to…

Hey Tumblr knowledge base, I has question.

The term “spirit animal” isn’t mine to use and I don’t care for the term “patronus” for my own reasons. I’ve been using the phrase “I feel a deep spiritual kinship with…” but it’s kind of clunky and I’d like something more succinct.

May I please have some suggestions? Thanks in advance.